Weekly Recovery Update — Week #14: Still Here, Still Healing, Still Tinkering
First off, I owe everyone a quick apology. I missed last week’s update. No dramatic excuse, no cliffhanger, no mysterious side quest. I simply forgot. Recovery brain, work routine, cardiac rehab, website updates, life — it all piled together and the weekly update slipped through the cracks.
The good news is that things have been going pretty well.
Some of the pain has started to calm down in certain areas, which is a very welcome change. I am not going to pretend everything feels perfect, because that would be a lie wrapped in motivational poster nonsense. There are still aches, still random reminders that my body went through a major event, and still days where I move the wrong way and immediately think, “Well, that was dumb.”
Sleep, however, is still being stubborn.
That has probably been the biggest ongoing struggle. I can feel progress in a lot of areas, but sleeping comfortably and consistently is still not where I want it to be. It is better than it was, but it is not fixed. I am learning that recovery is not always a straight line. Some things improve quickly, some things drag their feet, and some things apparently enjoy being difficult just because they can.
Work has also started to feel more locked in again. Getting back into a steady routine has helped a lot. I am working, showing up, getting things done, and slowly feeling more like myself in that part of life. Cardiac rehab has become part of that routine too, which is probably one of the more important pieces of the puzzle right now.
It is not glamorous. It is not some action-movie training montage. It is more like: show up, do the work, sweat a little, breathe correctly, try not to overdo it, and then go home feeling like I did something useful for future me.
I have also been making some great progress on the website — yes, this website. I have been updating layouts, improving sections, thinking more about design, SEO, sharing images, blog structure, and making the whole thing feel less generic. The goal is to make this place feel more like me: part recovery journal, part tech lab, part creative outlet, part “what project is Colin overthinking this week?”
Honestly, working on the site has been good for me. It gives me something creative and technical to focus on while still recovering. It scratches that developer itch without requiring me to go lift something stupid in the garage and immediately regret it.
I also had a nice time celebrating the 4th of July and America’s 250th anniversary. It was good to pause for a bit, enjoy the holiday, and take in one of those moments where you realize life is still moving forward. After everything this year has thrown at me, those simple moments matter more than they used to.
So that is where things stand this week:
I missed an update, but I am still here.
Pain is improving in some places.
Sleep is still being a pain in the ass.
Work is getting steadier.
Cardiac rehab is becoming part of normal life.
The website is getting better.
And I am still moving forward, one slightly sore, occasionally sleep-deprived, overly caffeinated step at a time.
Thanks for following along. I will try not to forget next week — but no promises, because apparently I am now the kind of person who has to put “write weekly update” on an actual list.
